I've been trying to formulate the complete picture of a revelation I began to receive a few months ago for some time- much in the same way I try to overcome my personal battles... in one large panoramic view. I'm beginning to realize that often this is not how it works...
Our journey through the valleys of life often offer only a parallel view as we trek step by step. And there are times we hit peaks, where we can glimpse back and see a bit more of the landscape of our lives as it has developed, but then we continue to push forward... further up the mountainside.
About two years ago, I was told "entering in to a New Season." I guess it seems only natural I was hopeful and thought it meant things were about to get ... better. But looking back, that season certainly did not feel better. My hubby's stresses only seemed to increase, further taking a toll on him. My brother in law went to be with the Lord. I fought lies that my "best days [spiritually] were behind me." That maybe God was done with using me. God felt silent, aside from the urging to spend time in His Word. Ironic, now that I look back ... I wanted so desperately to hear from Him, but I guess I wanted to hear from Him on my own terms. Ouch. I'll never forget when a dear friend and Pastor's wife share this sentiment as she prayed over me during those dark days:
"The teacher is always silent during the test."
I can't say I've completely passed through that season, there are days where I only have that parallel view as I journey onward, step by step. But I've finally arrived to a place where I can look back, and in the valley see all the beauty that is developing - slowly, still, and in LOVE. My heavenly Father is shaping me.
A revelation I am reminded of as I look back on this foggy mountainside picture, is that even when it is downcast and dark, just beyond the clouds, the sun still faithfully shines even when we cannot see it. Just as when we are downcast, the Son's love faithfully shines on us. Though our perspectives may change with seasons of life, God promises that He will never leave us or forsake us. (Deuteronomy 31:6)
As long as there is breath in my lungs, I pray that I will continue to pursue the path less traveled because in it there is abundant life - and though different seasons may come along the way, in the end it is a better season because my God is with me and His plans for me are good. (Jeremiah 29:11)
So step by step, in rain or shine, I'm trekking on❤️
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